there lies the truth

read between those unwritten lines
see through those invisible walls
listen to those deafening silence
there lies the truth that was never deeply masked within
then I knew
those who smiles to my face,
despise my guts behind my back
but hey,  it's okay to detest me
as I too, do want to spit on your face
but feign ignorance instead

G R E A T R E S C U E, they said

in the pit of darkness

save me no more

as eventhough love ever blooms 

only on your name 

when it was not everything

i still got nothing left 

let me free from your heart 

as im already escaped from the temporary hell 

to an eternal one. 

M O V E O N

Reading something like this (bout kalo jodoh whatsoeva juz crap at facebook) surely isnt good for me. It juz gets my hopes up even when i know that its really not the case. To say that im dying inside is so outrageous. i dreamt of you cause i thinks too much about you when im awake. i must accept that there will be no us- impossible things wont happen even if i hoped it to death and thats include being the one you loves.

Something that is bound to never happen wont ever happen and that include us. You are not even mine and never be mine- in this lifetime.

I was hurt, am hurting- this is messed up and I know

Note to myself; u are not broken, u are okay. Even i cant promise to not cry anymore i hope that i can move on.

Still in withdrawal state as its hard to avoid u.

Love is Leaving

Assalamualaikum

This is specially written for my 

Mr A Little Bravery Would Do

She noticed. 

How I seems like out of my mind these days

Lost in my own space 

Something that i realized 

Only when she stated it

I find it so hard to sleep 

At night I feel the pain 

Everywhere

Again and again

That can only eased by tears 

Truth or lies 

This heart is already broken 

And im dying inside trying to mend it

Even knowing it wont work

Is it love is leaving me

Or 

I am leaving the love 

Love and me 

The answer is we leaves each other 

Reality hits me like a truck 

Loving the heart that belongs to another heart 

Isnt the right thing to do 

Thats why

I need time - to leave the love that already left 

I have no regrets

At least I let he knows

My uncontrolable feelings 

That existed for him

I pray for your happiness here and hereafter 

With the girl whom you have in mind to marry her 

I want you to make her happy 

As that can guarantee your happiness

 

From a little girl who loved you 

And still loving you when she becomes a woman 

With hope that she can stop the love now.

Trying to Become A Bigger Person

Assalamualaikum... Emotion triggers me to start writing again after a while.

I shouldnt be sad as afterall I got my answer
I got the reason and it happens to hurt so much
Last night felt like a dream eventhough i didnt sleep a wink
In a way, I am thankful to him
The truth or not, he helps me to put a stop on this
Now i can try to accept there would never be us
Finally i get the courage to stop hoping

I want to put an end to this story that never even start yet.

Aku Ingin Melepaskan

Dunia memberikanku satu kekecewaan
Terasa terhina kerana aku rebah
Sungguh aku tak kuat
telahku adu kepada Penciptaku
dihadapanNya aku tersungkur
dihadapanNya aku menitiskan air mata
hati aku sakit
aku hanyut dalam kelelahan
kerana aku masih tidak mampu
sekali lagi aku menangis
dengan harapan ini adalah yang terakhir
kerana aku sudah tidak mahu meratap lagi
untuk kesekian kalinya.

Fluttering Heart of A Young Girl

The sweet dream that i've lived in only two days is more than enough.

 Breathless moments, i dont need to feel it for my entire life. 

Two days, and i'll remember it forever throughout my whole life,

as a precious memory. 

This is a modern fairy tale no happy ending no wind in our sails (The Heart Wants What it Wants/ Selena Gomez),